2021: An Update

It has been a long while since I last left my mark on this website. So many things have happened, and I've seen so many new things accompanied by meeting many new people. Over the course of the pandemic, it seemed that the only thing keeping me afloat was a job that I never really wanted to stay in. I should think myself lucky that despite the numerous amounts of failed job interviews and the lingering dread of never being able to leave, I don't think I'd be able to live as comfortably as I do now without my job behind me. Unfortunately, I still wouldn't be able to sugar coat working in food retail even if I tried. Not only do we come into contact with more than 200 people per shift, the seemingly bottomless amount of bitterness and rudeness that we get from customers on daily basis jabs the knife in that much more. It took a pandemic to realise how much the company I work for really couldn't care less about us or our health.

However the most important think that I've worked so hard to fix took a plummet this year. When I'd finally managed to evade the grip of an asphyxiating mental illness, the UK's 101 lockdowns and moving tier systems managed to drag me back into its clutches. There have been an overwhelming amount of deaths. I am thankful that I haven't lost anyone to the virus but am supporting friends that have lost family over the course of the past year.; may they be resting peacefully.

I had higher hopes for a year that seemed to have had all the stars aligned in the right positions. It still astounds me in 2021 that it could not have gone more wrong for all of us. Miraculously, I still hold out hope for a better year. This period has to end somewhere.

2021, I reserve good expectations for you. Please be kinder to us all.