An Open Letter to Those Who Have Done Me Wrong
I begin my letter with a moment to acknowledge the past. The first starts with my father and his apparent methods of raising two children in a foreign country:
You were a whole lot of wrong. Many decisions weren't healthy and you betrayed your family in multiple ways, the most. But I know that it's taken you many years to realise those wrongs and for you to try and amend them is a great first step in the right direction. It's better.
The second is with my friends who have bullied me or went behind my back and said things to others about me. I have people who were still apologising years later and others I've lost connection with. I'm gratuitous of your words and I'm even more grateful of how critical and sceptical of people I have become to know them as a person before I decide I can trust them. To me, this is a gift that I practically treasure as it has helped me even now. It may still take some time, but I come round eventually. To others that think they've done nothing really wrong, I'm sorry that you are still ignorant of your mistakes and don't try to mend them to become better. I'm not saying I've never done anything wrong either, but I apologise wholeheartedly and learn from my mistakes.
Next is for my past lovers. Though things haven't always gone smoothly, and there have been things that were completely unnecessary and events I should have gone without, I thank you for them happening. If they hadn't, I wouldn't have been with this human embodiment of an angel I have now. And I've also realised that I didn't deserve the things I went through, and I have come out with too much for a person my age to have experienced. But I can be the kind of person I needed most, for other people who need it in the present. I'm glad I can be of some assistance for people who think they have no-one.
A re connection with a friend who I haven't seen for a while, made me realise how much my life has completely changed within the span of a few months.
I made new friends, I've gained a whole other sense of independence, I've been going back to therapy in the form of hypno, and I've made plenty of changes for myself that have come to almost totally define myself as a person.
I cannot and WILL NOT deal with people or opinions that don't benefit or help me or encourage me in any sort of way anymore. The first way that I learnt this was when I stepped away to university and had to be very sceptical of those I engaged with.
Next is for those of the present: I have good things going for me. Because of the things that I've learnt from the past and how people have treated me to this point, I will not allow those kind of things jeopardise my future. I will not stand to be pushed around anymore, and I will not stand for others to be bullied or pushed around either.
People can be so toxic, but I'm glad to say that I have successfully cut them out of my life without the realisation; and it's time for others to do the same.
Lastly for those of my future: I have gone through so much that there is nothing you can do to emotionally or physically to pull me down anymore. I have been broken down, bruised, used, abused, you name it, I've been there; but if you happen to try to affect my happiness in future, then I'm sorry that you're still at the age to bully others and haven't grown up yet. Ultimately, I won't be sorry for whatever state you'll come out of the situation in.
Sincerely,
Me.
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