Moving on.
I think one of the hardest things in life is to love yourself.
It's even harder to love yourself after someone has devalued you to an extent.
Though, I think the biggest triumph in life is to take that devaluation and love yourself even harder.
I'm learning and I'm trying everyday.
Even if I end up cleaning my flat at 5am to calm me down over liars, cheaters, homesickness, constant anxiety and the sudden motivation to do everything and anything, I'm getting there.
From now on, nobody gets to me unless I let them and if there's something I don't like, I will say it. I won't be put down from answering questions in classes because I'm maybe dumb compared to the rest of my fantastic class and I will not let presentation fears cripple me.
I will move on from people who don't deserve my time, and much less my worries or tears and I hope to a god, if they exist, that I will finally get to break even after 19 years of bullshit.
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