Grief Sucks
I admit, I lost a mind a little bit
How do you ease grief
When it isn't you gieving to begin with?
Someone I barely knew died back home;
And I think the hardest part about someone dying, is how you console the person you love.
When is it appropriate to do certain things?
Do certain mannerisms bother you?
What kind of a person does loss make them?
How do you make it better for them, without them falling into pieces first?
I think the worst part about certain grievances is when you're elsewhere.
I'm on the other side of the country at the moment and not being there for them sucks.
So I'm travelling in just over 6 hours to be with them because they need me.
I will help them get past it, because their smile is the most gorgeous thing and I hope they can do it again soon.
As for me, travel makes me so nervous;
Especially time acute travel with one train being close to the next and delays can cause so much disruption to the whole motion of your journey.
I didn't know how to function properly at work either.
My mind was racing with various thoughts and worries about all of these so staff announcements went terribly and I couldn't communicate with my customers properly.
Grief itself is an awful thing, but it becomes worse when it's you looking on the outside worrying about your other half;
and it still affects you because your brain suddenly becomes wired to try looking after them, even if it isn't a struggle.
Grief sucks.
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